Jesus doesn't love me (or you) and that's ok
When we are exposed to Christian indoctrination processes we are conditioned to believe Jesus the idol loves us. We are forced to love him in return or we are deemed evil and destined for hell.
The New Testament, despite claiming to be all about love is filled with threats. Believe this OR ELSE. The biggest lie in the Bible is that Jesus loves us - as is told to countless little children around the world. The bloodied man on the cross loves you. You owe him everything. If you don’t believe in him then you are an antichrist and filled with a demon. Now I am older and not living in fear of Jesus I just can’t bring myself to worship a mentally ill man that was (possibly) wrongly executed 2000 odd years ago. And that’s ok.
Jesus doesn’t love you or me and that’s ok. He’s essentially a literary character these days and it is unlikely that much remains of the real man that the scriptures are based on. All of the stories in the New Testament aren’t actual testimony from eyewitnesses of Jesus but rather stories passed around the early church. An early church that turned what was an unorthodox Rabbi into God Himself.
As Jesus started on His way, a man ran up and knelt before Him. “Good Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?”
“Why do you call Me good?” Jesus replied. “No one is good except God alone.
Mark 10:17-18
That is a bible quote you won’t see much in any Christian Church because it is Jesus themselves saying they are clearly not God. I have a lot of time for God, and I diligently used to read and think about the stories in the bible. Now I am older and a writer myself I can see how these stories were written by early believers in order to gain more converts. Much like you see Christians churches like Hillsong release music in order to entice new believers.
Jesus doesn’t love you or me, he’s incapable of love. It would be like expecting love from Harry Potter or Sherlock Holmes. They are characters in books. Not real people. There are certainly people in my life who love me, and I know through their love I can experience “God”. However, with Jesus, there is no love. Just a collection of stories and lies.
The idiotic things that the bible and Christian Churches demand that you believe affected me deeply. They disrupted my life. They didn’t “save” me, they doomed me. It was only when I could mentally move on from “Jesus Christ” that I stopped wanting it all to end. Jesus never made me happy. He made me miserable and poor. He made me mentally unwell.
That isn’t love. That is hatred. So maybe this magical Jesus hates me and I’m ok with that. I’ve learned to forgive Jesus his lies because like Jesus I also have a mental illness so I can see it wasn’t his fault. Yes, he was innocent, but his ideas weren’t. They continue to be used by believers across the world to brainwash children and adults alike.
I would get angry but really it doesn’t matter. The things written in the bible aren’t even really Jesus’ ideas or words. They are the words of various writers who I guess were well-intentioned. They wanted other people to feel the “love” that Jesus gave them when in reality it wasn’t love it was madness.
Just like Mohammed’s apparent schizophrenia, the characters of the New Testament are often sufferers of mental illnesses. It was the Apostle Paul’s mental illness (which manifested in visions, seizures and delusions about Jesus) that showed what the love of Jesus really was: religious slavery:
Paul, a slave of Christ Jesus, called as an apostle, having been set apart for the gospel of God.
Romans 1:1
We all want to believe that we are something more important than we really are. Just like Paul wanted to believe his mental illness was really “God” Jesus speaking to him when it wasn’t. So we live with the repercussions of people confusing mental illness for divinity. We are left forced to worship a man and to replace the true God with a scarecrow on a cross.
I won’t be replacing the LORD with an idol like Jesus any longer and for some reason, that feels like shackles falling from my body. Yet to Christians, I am the devil for not submitting to their delusion. Jesus is not God, and to his credit, he never seemed to have claimed it. Christians made that up.
I guess they just wanted to feel loved by somebody and to have somebody to love. So they invented cuddly Christ. Somebody to love them. Instead, be strong in your faith in God (or something else if you are an atheist) and you won’t need to follow false idols to make you happy. Jesus doesn’t love me and I’m ok with that.
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